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April 5th, 2005

01:14 pm same with this song... Think of me/Think of me fondly when we've said goodbye/Remember me/Once in a while, please promise me you'll try/When you find that once again you long to take your heart back and be free/If you ever find a moment/Spare a thought for me/We never said our love was evergreen/Or as unchanging as the sea/But if you can still remember/Stop and think of me/Think of all the things we've shared and seen/Don't think about the way things might've been/ think of me/Think of me waking, silent and resigned/Imagine me trying too hard to put you from my mind/Recall those days/Look back on all those times/Think of the things we'll never do/There will never be a day when I won't think of you. Current Mood: annoyed Current Music: uknown...

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12:30 pm - true and not true I woke up today Woke up wide awake In an empty bed Staring at an empty room I have myself to blame For the state I'm in today And now dying Doesn't seem so cruel And oh, I don't know what to say And I don't know anyway Anymore I hate myself for losing you I'm seeing it all so clear I hate myself for losing you What do you do when you look in the mirror And staring at you is why she's not here? You got what you deserved Hope you're happy now 'Cause everytime I think of her with you It's killing me Inside, and Now I dread each day Knowing that I can't be saved From the loneliness Of living without you And, oh I don't know what to do Not sure that I'll pull through I wish you knew I hate myself for losing you I'm seeing it all so clear I hate myself for losing you What do you do when you look in the mirror And staring at you is why she's not here? I hate myself for losing you And oh, I don't know what to do Not sure that I'll pull through I wish you knew And oh, I don't know what to say And I don't know anyway Anymore No, no I hate myself for losing you (I'm seeing it all so clear) I'm seeing it all so clear I hate myself for losing you What do you do when you look in the mirror And staring at you is why she's not here? What do you say when everything's said? Is the reason why he left you in the end? How do you cry when every tear you shed Won't ever bring him back again? I hate myself for loving you in many way this is true but some ppl may think this is about them and this is not true this is about something that i dont want to mention...only the few no about this and id like it to keep it this way..... Current Mood: aggravated Current Music: hate myself for losing u- kelly clarkson

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12:27 pm - hey well when ppl say one something ud expect for that person whose being told to believe wutever they say but i dont bleive wut they say. i think wut they say is true sometimes true but in other times it isnt. or another thing is they say its because of one reason but really the true reason is being cover ed up by their reason whihch isnt true. but i cant read minds so idk wut to do so i guess the true question is is...to believe or not to believe , that is the question....which one do i belive...? ~hugs~ ~me~ Do you ever feel like breaking down? Do you ever feel out of place? Like somehow you just don't belong And no one understands you Do you ever wanna run away? Do you lock yourself in your room? With the radio on turned up so loud That no one hears you screaming No you don't know what it's like When nothing feels all right You don't know what it's like To be like me To be hurt To feel lost To be left out in the dark To be kicked when you're down To feel like you've been pushed around To be on the edge of breaking down And no one's there to save you No you don't know what it's like Welcome to my life Do you wanna be somebody else? Are you sick of feeling so left out? Are you desperate to find something more? Before your life is over Are you stuck inside a world you hate? Are you sick of everyone around? With their big fake smiles and stupid lies While deep inside you're bleeding No you don't know what it's like When nothing feels all right You don't know what it's like To be like me To be hurt To feel lost To be left out in the dark To be kicked when you're down To feel like you've been pushed around To be on the edge of breaking down And no one's there to save you No you don't know what it's like Welcome to my life No one ever lied straight to your face And no one ever stabbed you in the back You might think I'm happy but I'm not gonna be okay Everybody always gave you what you wanted You never had to work it was always there You don't know what it's like, what it's like To be hurt To feel lost To be left out in the dark To be kicked when you're down To feel like you've been pushed around To be on the edge of breaking down And no one's there to save you No you don't know what it's like (what it's like) To be hurt To feel lost To be left out in the dark To be kicked when you're down To feel like you've been pushed around To be on the edge of breaking down And no one's there to save you No you don't know what it's like Welcome to my life Welcome to my life Welcome to my life Current Mood: annoyed Current Music: welcome to my life- simple plan

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April 2nd, 2005

11:30 pm - grrr im hopin noone is reading this..... if u r reading this at least just leave a comment so i kow who is actually still watching this one which i hope is no one genie i know love s me and all but idk she seems not to trust me and it doesnt seem she really likes me that mcuh. she says she loves me and all but idk because when a person tells u that we shouldnt b goin out i think thats not always teh best thing in the world. the yea im not sayiong becasue jen knows wut i think and yea just yea im stupid and i neeed to get over and yea im jsut really really really really dumb and stupid and lame that i cant get over it. i should b way over it by now btu im not and its jsut yea it wont leave its still there. i want it to leave but then again i dont want it to leave becasue its still true soo i dont know wut to do but i dont need anyone to tell me wut to do cause i kow wut u all will say . so im gonna go right now since im relaly jsut yea in the dumpers also a crappy part is that auds and everyone along with genie is pretty much excluding clare adn i from ...everything! its like we rnt in the group anymore. well if they r seriously goin to blike that then im jus tgoin to b like o ok fine then i guess now i only have 2 friend s i guess now thanx everyone.......... hugs ~me~ Current Mood: aggravated Current Music: shit theres no music for this

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January 11th, 2005

12:49 pm - look at my first one the first journal Current Mood: rushed

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December 16th, 2004

09:25 am - hello hello ppl well i guess i enter in here since no one else can read the other one. well as well as everyone knows i gave up with her and went with genie. im not going to wait for something that will never happen. and if i wait to long she may not be there any more therefore ill take advantage of the moment. well basketball has been going well i guess. the first game i played like 25 minutes and scored 7 points with 3 rebounds. but then in the second game i played like 2 minutes and got one rebound, sooo idk wut to think. hopefully i ge to play more in the future. thats mainly y i dont want anyone to come becasue i dont play that much. if u do come to any of our games dont expect me to play much at all. christmas is here and i want everyone to email me (gofightinirishhw@yahoo.com) there christmas list so i know wut to get them and no one can say "nothing" because thats my saying and thats just that. wut do i want? things u ppl cant get me. a drum set, and a license. thats all. i havent talked to anyone except for a few ppl latley so hopefully when finals r done we can hang out more. ive got to work out ost of the season so i can get stronger for all my sports. our basketball team s undefeated but i dont want to be to confident. all the teams we have played r easy and r nothing compared to the pansy pilots, so i hoping we wont be over confident when we play verse them so we can win big. well im out, ill talk to u ppl later. plz everyone leave a comment and email me.. hugs love ya genie XOXOXO later Current Mood: discontent

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December 4th, 2004

07:50 am - ..... dince privacy is not something i can get i guess i just wont have a lj any more happy b-day kirbs Current Mood: annoyed

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